Happy Valentines Day!

This weekend is for lovers! Right.
Tonight Chad and I are going to the restaurant at Confluence Park where we got engaged. We got a $50 certificate from motherhood maternity when I bought some summer maternity clothes back in November or December. The stipulations are that we have to spend $100 in order to use it. Well, that won't be hard :) The place is quite pricey, but from what I remember from 4 or 5 years ago is that it is really good food. We are treating ourselves...so I shouldn't feel guilty about spending a little extra. I think we deserve it. Well, maybe we don't, but I sure feel like we need a break from our lives.
Weston thinks so too, but he is a bit jealous that he doesn't get to go, so he made me pay for it last night. We put cranky pants to bed around 7:15 b/c he was being extra grumpy. Well, around 8, he woke screaming. So, we tried to soothe and help him go back to sleep for about a half hour to no avail...so he got to stay up rocking with mommy and watching the office until 9:30. I know, we are already exposing our child to rotten television (we don't think it's rotten, but some people do :). We think it's absolutely hilarious! if you dont watch The Office, you should...you really should. Anyway, he fell asleep pretty much as soon as I put him to bed. Alright! Time for me to get some rest b/c tomorrow (today) is going to be busy.
Nope, come 1am, Weston is awake and crying again. So i go into his room, lay down in bed with him and nurse him til he falls asleep. I stay in his room until 5 am...on and off sleeping while trying to keep him sleeping. To say the least, we both didn't get much sleep.
I put him down and went to bed at 5am. Didn't get up until 9:15 and now I'm not feeling so hot. Got the laundry started and haven't packed yet for the weekend in Cbus. So, It's 1:30, chad will be home in 2 hours. I just put cranky pants down to nap and now i have to pack and shower and get ready. 2 hours isn't going to be enough. So i should get off of here, but I really needed a place to write it all out.
Being a mom is awesome, even if it means sacrificing what I want for the well-being of my cranked son. I wouldn't trade it for the world. In fact, I was talking to chad the other night saying how I sometimes, I just want to go into Weston's room at night and pick him up and cuddle with him-Wish granted :) Maybe not in the way or the time I wanted it, but honestly, I treasured that time I got to spend gazing into my little babe's face and rubbing his back as he slept in my arms. These times are fleeting and I hate how fast it is going. I pray I won't take them for granted and that I will thank Jesus for each moment I have with my boy, even if he's screaming in my ear.
I haven't posted since last weeks appointment and I apologize. We only talked with the dr since everything was going as it should. She told us that we could start trying again in a month or so, which is hard to hear b/c I am not patient. I don't want to wait a month. I was hoping that we would get pregnant right away and I even went as far as taking a test to b/c I want it so badly. I knew even before I took it what the results were going to be, but I was hoping I was going to be surprised. Of course, I wasn't and it was just another disappointment. In God's timing we will be blessed again, but that doesn't mean I'm not allowed to be disappointed in the time being. It's hard to accept God's time, but in Ecclesiastes, we read that there is a time for everything, even loss. I may not like the time we are in now, but I need to embrace it. We look forward to what the future brings because we know we are in God's hands and that is the best place to be in.

Update on Weston-he has 4 teeth now! Boy does it hurt when he bites...keep your fingers out of his mouth unless you want to lose 'em!