A New Direction

Today is my last day at work. When I woke up chad asked me if I was excited about my last day of work. Now don't get me wrong, i am very excited to meet our little guy...who is late by the way-no surprise, he's just following in his family's footsteps-I am excited to take the next step in our life, which has changed drastically in the last few days, but it is also a bittersweet day. I like to work...no, I love to work. I love having something to do everyday, something to keep my mind working, something to keep me from sitting on the couch and watching House/NCIS all day long :) Something to distract me from my worries. I am going to miss the friends I have made at Daavlin and I am going to miss the routine-yes, you read that right, I am going to miss the routine of getting up, going to work, coming home, so on and so forth.
However, I am so excited to be able to spend time with my little boy and my husband, time we've never had before and probably never will have again before retirement. Chad losing his job at this time in our lives is very stressful, but it is also a blessing. These are days that we will NEVER get back. If he would still be working, he wouldn't get to see his son for more than a few hours a day, Chad and I wouldn't get to spend time after the birth of our son getting to know the new "us". I am so excited for us to be able to do that. God has indeed blessed us.
My eyes were so clouded before with the scariness of the unknown that I refused to see the blessing that this time is. God is stretching us. He is making us rely on him and I know that our faith, our family, our love for eachother will be strengthened to a degree that we will have never been able to achieve without this type of intervention.
Thank you for your prayers, thank you for your loving words, thank you for your support. I'm not saying that there won't be any more tears and heartache in the days to come, but I know that we WILL make it through and we WILL come out on top. We may lose money on our house when it sells (and hopefully it will be soon after we put it on the market) we may not have jobs (hopefully we will) and we may have to learn to lean on others for help. BUT, we will NEVER lose our God, we will NEVER be with out Jesus Christ. That I can hold onto, that is my truth.

Unfortunately, we don't have internet at home, so email and blogging will be something that will be done when we can make it to the library or steal internet from our friends. I apologize now for the sporadic updates, but I will try as hard as I can to keep everybody updated on our lives and our son when he decides to come about :)